xmas is along the way..many things to do..exams is also along the way..including zhong qiu jie..so many events..so many people to be concern of..suprises suprises...is there anyting i can expect n hope for this holiday season??im reli wishing for something special...even thou the pecentage is so skmall..but i reli wish it cud cum true..how nice if i cud spend the full holidays wf u oni..it wud mean the world to me...hope u like wat im getting for u

again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!why la......i gave so many chances to u!!!!!!!!!!!!!ALL U NEED TO DO WAS TO INFORM ME..AN SMS WUD DO JUST FINE...BUT U DIDNT..U MADE ME WAIT LIKE A FOOL...I NEVER ASK A LOT FROM U...JUST WANTED A BIT MORE CONCERN...EVEN IF IM NOT AS IMPORTANT AS U THINK I SHUD BE IN UR LFE..PLEASE RESPECT ME AS A HUMAN...IM SURE U WUDNT KEEP OTERS WAITING LIKE TAT...NOW IM STILL SO CLUEELESS..DUNNO WATS THE REASON FOR ME TO FORGIVE YOU...I WAS SO ANGRY..SO ANGRY TAT I FELT IWASNT IMPORTANT AT ALL...I FEEL TAT I HAVE ALWIS PUT UR WELFARE ON PRIORITY..BUT WHY DUN I FEEL THE SAME FROM U??I KNOW U HAVE MANY RESPONSBILITES..BUT I JUST NEED U TO THINK BOUT ME TOO...BE A BIT MORE CONCERN BOUT ME..FEELS LIKE MAYB THE MAIN REASON WE STARTED JUST BECOS U FELT PITY OF ME...U KEEP REMINDING ME BOUT NOT BEING READY TOWARDS THIS RELATIONSHIP..IF U STILL FEEL THAT IM NOT THE ONE WORTH FOR U TO SPEND UR TIME AND EFFORT FOR ANYTHING..THEN I THINK WE SHUD JUST STOP HERE..I DUN WAN TO FEEL SO BAD..LKIKE IMBEGGING ON MY KNEES TO ASK U TO LUV ME...I DUNNO WHY I CUD FEEL LIKE THIS...BUT IF I DIDNT LUV YOU STILL..I WUDNT HAVE PICK UP UR CALL...IM JUST TOO SAD NOW...WHY DOES THIS ALWIS HAPPEN TO ME???ARE U PLAYING WF ME???IS IT BCOS IM NOT GOOD ENUF FOR U TO REALLY LOVE ME??U DUN EVEN BOTHER TO LEARN BOUT ME..WHY???IM SO SCARE NOW..... :'(

 

 

 

gonna finish my mditerm exam soon..but as days pass by without u...it feels very stressful honestly...i miss u a lot...im reli sorry when i complain and compare a lot to u..but i cant help it...u cant do anything muchtogethe wf me unlike last time when ur wif sumone else...is this sum knd of stupid test?wy must it be me?? each time when i confront to u, u will be so smart to defend and protect urself only in a way that it hurts me so bad...thats y i feel so sad...u alwis say things to make me cry esp when u say its ok for me tha i shud look for sumone else..why??does that mean u dun luv me enuf??not enuf that ur willing to let go of me??dont i matter to u at all???i just wan to be by ur side bcos i luv u so much..hope that we can start again...im praying each day that we can still remain together, loving each other and understand one another...ur my support that i can hold on to...without u...i have nothing left hope that we can make it..hope that i can make it....