why does it hurt so much when u expect ur luv one to understand u at the moment u really want sumone to care...just a few words that hits on to ur patner..n he just shuts up n swallows it all..he will just say yes ur right...nthg else to say..no comment..why cant u say sthg to make me feel more confident that it is right to be with u?all i need is sum sense of security from u...most of all..all the time..u know that i am far away from u..but cant u understand how my lonely heart feels? the tension behind the smiling face?how much i worry bout us?bout u????

 

mayb its time for me to really think bout it..to think whether i deserve to continue this relationship with u...mayb we wud be better off without each other....

15 DAYS OF CHINESE NEW YEAR HAS PASSED..PLANNING TO CELEBRATE THE WONDERFUL EVENT OF CHAP GOH MEH BUT ENDING UP DOING NOTHING AT HOME...WELL...MOST OF THE TIME WATCHING DRAMAS...WNET TO THE TEMPLE FOR THE MAN CHEONG PRAYERS THOU...IT WAS STHG UN EXPECTED I WUD SAY..THE MASTER TOLD ME EXACTLY EVERYTHING BOUT ME..ONE THING HE SAID HE ASK ME TO PROMISED HIM TO BE PATIENT...NOT TO GET ANGRY..HOW ON EARTH HE KNOW LA??SO WEIRD!!!BUT THEN...THE TRUTH IS HE WAS RIGHT...I CAN GETG ANGRY FOR THE SMALLEST THING ON EARTH ESPECIALLY WHEN IT WS CAUSED BY MY DEAREST BF CHAN KOK FEI....MAYB I RELI GOTTA TO COOL DOWN N LEARN HOW TO CONTROL MY ANGER....HE EVEN KNEW THAT I TRIED TO DIET BUT TAK JADI!!OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....RELI HAVE TO BE KUAI D LO...

 

HEHE....WAT I AM MOST CONCERN OF IS MY DARLING..HAVING PROBLEMS FINANCIALLY...BEING SO CLUELESS..BEING SO AIMLESS...MAKING ME MORE WORRIED...RELI DEEP DOWN I HOPE THAT HE WUD FIND STHG THAT HE LUVS TO DO..START TO MAKE PLANS FOR THE FUTURE...N NOT TO WORRY BOUT THE RELATIONSHIP...I HOPE THAT HE WILL BE SUCCESFUL SO THAT I DUN HAVE TO LIE TO MY PARENTS....GOSH...THE TENSION...THE PRESSURE....BUTI CANT THINK OF LEAVING HIM COS I LUV HIM OS MUCH, SO DEEPLY THAT I WAN TO HELP HIM GO THRU THIS HARDSHIP UNTIL EVERYTHING IS OVER..I RELI N SINCERELY PRAY THAT HE DOES KNOW HOW SERIOUS THE PROBLEM IS...HOW CONCERNED I AM..N HOW HE SHUD NOT LET GO OF ANYTHING...BE STRONG MY DEAR..I HATE TO SEE U DEPENDING ON PEOPLE LIKE THAT..IT BREAKS MY HEART TO SEE U SUFFER LIKE THAT...