im feeling much better now..after muchcrying..talking n counselling to u makes me feels better..whenever u go..it really feels like a precious item that i cant live without has just taken away from me...i miss u a lot...thanks for everythng...im reli happy to be with u....the little things that u do are the one that makes me glow and smile everytime when i think of u...i love you darling..hope that uwill have a better future and all your dreams will come true...im alwis here for u..waiting and supporting u patiently...

why does it hurt so much when th eperson you cares just never seem to bother? why does it even hurt even more when u realize that ur patner has never done anything for u?

 

peole often say that understanding between patners are essential to make the relationship better and last longer...but wat if it might actually be a one-sided love? or wat if theother person keeps hurting u all over again and again until ur just so restless and clueless....

 

making ur partner worry everyday seems like a rountine isit? oh..its so fucking hell la...why dont i just leave this damn pain down and let go..im just so sick of crying everyday...im so stupidly being sad here alone while u dun even bother bout wat i think...maybe u will say that its my fault for not being understanding...so be it...i dunno wat to do anymore....

 

i just give up.....

at times when im feeling so down, i just cant understand why u can act so cold towards me? sumtimes i reli wonder why dont u ever try to take the time to really know me, try to understand me, n be int he position of how i would reli feel..i do admit i do have my mistakes, my faults, my wrongdoings to you..but when im back on my senses..u never seem to bother n never seem to bother to try harder to make me feel good...why do i alwis cry?why?i want to be happy..i wan to smile and say proudly that i still love u so deeply..each time when im being heartbroken by u,i kept asking myself is it really worth it to stay by ur side?is it really real that u actually care bout me?or u have been pity at me for all this time bcos of ur own atitiude that seems so useless and u just feel its ur responsibility...i just wan to feel appreciated...

 

do u know how jealous i feel when i walk in the shopping complex seeing other couples so happily together holding hands side-by-side?how envy i feel that their bf is there n wondering why r u not here with me..do you know how lonely i am when im walking alone whenever ur not beside me?n how lonely i feel when u left me alone after each fight?do u know i jealous i felt when i saw ur bro n his gf so lovingly cooking in the kitchen?i kept thinking bout u...what have u done for me?with me?to me?where did the happy moments of mine all gone?why do i hate u so much now!why!!!!!!!!!!

 

should we love and forgive to carry on?or should we just let go and start a new life without each other?

 

mayb its me...that i still cant accept your lifestlye, your attitude that just keep silence....i realize that i still dont know u well enuf...or i should say...i realize that i no longer know you...i really dun understand you as the same position of you not knowing me....

 

what am i suppose to do now?