its been a long time since i have updated my blog...all the while its been lots of sorrow and sadness,..whenever im updating this blog, it shall alwis be crying....so my dissapperance for sum time means good rite...means that im happy..

 

i hav been reli patient lately...learning how to undertand my partner..learning how to understand myself...

 

im learning very hard to accept ppl's weaknesses and learn others' advantages..will i be a better person that way??

 

i feel that sumtimes its so unfair to be in the real world where there are so much things to think about and many decisions to make..can sumone help me to make me think lesser??

 

now the time to struggle for studies has arrived...but at the same time..im often pressured by my appreance...by my weight especially..why do i easily get offended when i sort of get the hint that they r talking about me? please la...if u wan to say that im oversize, just say so la..when im being kind to u, why do u need to stab me right in front? wtf did i do to u la?? IM AD FEELING DAMN BAD WHEN I LOOK AT HOT MODELS POSING THEIR SENSUAL BODIES ONLINE LA!! IDIOTS!!

 

mayb thats y there is the saying "IGNORANCE IS THE BLISS"....i shud learn to accept it..n most of all..learn to change!!

 

diet diet here i come!! PLEASE SUPPORT ME TO ACHIEVE MY IDEAL WEIGHT!! THANKS!!

 

I'M STILL GLAD THAT UR ALWIS THERE REGARDLESS OF HOW I LOOK..THX!